I think I'm going midwife.

Well, I had my follow up appointment this morning regarding the land of yeast - and I passed with flying colors!

The Midwife I had today was John. I will admit, I was a little leery about having a man take a gander at my junk. It's been years since I had a male OB. However, I loved him. He was so kind and thorough - and just an overall wonderful person! I'm now convinced that I want to go the route of a midwife and not an OB. :)

Here's the TMI part. You may choose to not read if you don't want to read about cervixes and endometrial cells. Skip down to the stars below if you're grossed out.

He basically said that I have a lot more endometrial cells on the outer edge of my cervix. Those cells are flimsier and tend to bleed more easily. So, he said he assumes that all it took was that applicator hitting it and blammo - lots of spotting. He also said that explains why I tend to spot after sex. And the icing on the cake - he said my cervix is tilted. I guess most people's sit at about 10 o clock when lying down, but mine is more like 12 o clock. But he did the recheck and all my yeast cells are gone. He said my pH is a little less acidic than they'd like, so I may be prone to more infections in the future, but for now everything is good.

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So, needless to say I learned more from him in 15 minutes than I have in the past 15 years about my body.

I also chatted with him about spilling the beans. We discussed my LMP vs my real due date, and "to get the date correct" he suggested an ultrasound. So, Thursday morning we can actually see the little bee! SO EXCITED. After I get confirmation at that appointment, we're going to start telling people. He warned that you're really not fully in the clear until about 10-12 weeks, but I'm willing to take the chance. (He said that I'm definitely on the lower end of the risk scale for miscarriage.)

So, that's that! My appointment tomorrow is all about blood work and peeing in cups and talking about histories.

I cannot wait until Thursday!

About to have my seltzer in a highball.

We're about to go out for a friend's birthday. Only my second "night on the town" since the BFP. I'm tired, bloated, and totally fine with staying home. But, alas, we shall go out. I don't know how long I'll last, but I'm giving it my all.

"I'll have a seltzer in a highball with a lemon, please. Hold the vodka."

No spotting today. Seems the culprit may have indeed been the dreaded treatment. We'll see what tomorrow holds.

Seabands are still holding strong.

All seems well in the land of baby bee.

We'll find out Monday...

...what the deal is with my spotting.

Well, here I am a week after starting the treatment (which I am now finished with) and I'm still spotting. No cramping, but it's a little concerning.

The nurse I spoke to today seemed a little concerned as well and agreed I needed some peace of mind. She wanted me to take the weekend to see if the spotting cleared on it's own now that the treatment is finished.

So, Monday morning I'm going in to have them check my cervix and see if I possibly have a bacterial infection or if something else is going on. If there's no infection present, she said I may get an ultrasound to check everything out, make sure there's no other issues.

My reminder for the day.

Just because I've been focusing so much on the "10%-20% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage" statistic...I'm turning it around.

80%-90% of all pregnancies result in a baby!

(I like thinking of those odds much much better.)

Dear SeaBands...

If I wasn't already married and bearing my husband's child - I'd totally do all of that with you.

You're the greatest.

Love,
jennabee

That dreaded feeling again.

Although I am still firmly planted on the schooner of seasickness, I once again have that nagging feeling like something's awry in babyland. I think this is mostly centered around wanting to tell people REALLY BADLY and also knowing that I more than likely will not be getting any sort of visible or audible confirmation that things are peachy for maybe a few more weeks.

Having minor bleeding occasionally isn't helping much, although the MW and nurse at my clinic insist that it's normal with a yeast infection. I'm just wondering how I'm going to handle being that close to an ultrasound machine and not get the confirmation I so desperately want at my appointment on Tuesday.

The hubs isn't coming with me either, which sucks. He's getting a crown put on later that afternoon and apparently can't afford to lose the time off. He says he'll come to future appointments, but I'm kind of sad now. I already feel like crying because of it. I'm scared I'm going to get bad news that day and then he won't be there to console me.

Go away bad thoughts, go away...

6 Weeks.

Hello bloat baby!
(and yes, that would be a cat's ass walking through the photo. Internets, meet BooBoo.)

How far along? 6 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: +1lb from last week
Maternity clothes? I bought some. A shirt & dress from OldNavy, and some comfy pants from Target.
Stretch marks? No.
Sleep: I've suddenly started to prefer sleeping on my back, vs on my left side which was customary before the BFP. This is just strange to me. Although, I do wake up on my side occasionally.
Best moment this week: Not having a bladder infection. Worst? Having a yeast infection.
Movement: None. Not even in the bowels.
Food cravings: Chinese food.
Gender: We've officially decided on waiting until birth for this one. And I'm thinking boy.
Labor Signs: Zip.
Belly Button in or out? Innie.
What I miss: BEER. Holy crap do I miss beer.
What I am looking forward to: Mostly being done with this "treatment." And also the 1st appt.
Weekly Wisdom: What feels like a bladder infection could very well not be. And spotting is NORMAL with a yeast infection.
Milestones: Not doing jack shit but feeling HORRIBLE on Sunday. And first visit to the new clinic.